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my heart's guardian

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Her-story
“Mending a heart is very painful” She warned. Then I heard her say in a soft and comforting voice “And I am here with you, every stitch of the way.” I don’t know her name, but her name isn’t important. What is important is that she came.

The Creative Process for “Mending A Heart”
I had a mixture of emotions swirling around inside my soul at about the time this one was trying to solidify into being. Hate. Loneliness. Fear. Anger. Unforgivness. Self Loathing & Doubt.

I had gone through losing my best friend, who happened to be a family member, to death. And I was becoming aware that mistrust and betrayal was beginning to end my marriage with a long divorce. I was losing track of time and I hadn’t made anything creative in months. But I was carrying a sketchbook with me religiously, drawing faces and hands, faces with images in the minds as if they were carrying memories.

Then one late night out of many sleepless ones, Guardian’s face appeared under the point of my pencil. I cried myself to sleep. It was good to finally sleep.

Over the next few days I envisioned a little one, childlike but very old in years and wise in the ways of healing. As I began drawing out the templates for the life-sized heart she is to hold in her detailed little hands, I realized she would have to be large as well.

It will be difficult to let this one go. But as I have learned lessons as she was being made through my hands, I know her story should be shared if she is to mend your hearts. It is through disappointment, betrayal, blame & divorce that this beautiful, surreal reminder came to me. To remind me God has never left me. And that if we allow ourselves to be open our hearts will be healed through tragedy.

There is pain in healing. But we can expect to come through the fires which hurt us and learn to live more beautifully than before.
Image size
483x1000px 472.33 KB
Make
EASTMAN KODAK COMPANY
Model
KODAK EASYSHARE C913 DIGITAL CAMERA
Shutter Speed
1/80 second
Aperture
F/2.7
Focal Length
6 mm
ISO Speed
64
Date Taken
Jun 28, 2010, 11:46:32 AM
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